I dont actually remember the first two or three days very well, it was raining a lot, but warm and actually almost pleasant, and my already by default setting jungleproof Maeuschen was showing me the work place, and we got to know the team.   Big up to the team, really good people, marine biologists Marc and Darwin,

 

...(my surprise at those kind of english names wore off quickly as more people introduced themselfes throughout the day, so next time a small featured (for your standards.. are there actually more asians than whitekids in the world?) , brown skinned asian looking doode comes to you and says his name is Fitzpatrick, just take it as given, and admit that yours is River Rainbow because your parents wanted it this way)...

 

Community Organizers and Educators Laura, Rolie, Jimmy and boat and car drivers Daniel, Pat and Noel.    Ju and I are the only white people in the team, the college, and pretty much the whole town, apart from Donnie, who lives next door to us in the Surfers Inn, for 10 months per year and works for two in a californian nuclear power plant, and that other middleaged white doode that i saw cross the road by where our food supply is a few times.   You can imagine the situation for Ju, the only white chick in town.    

 

 

This email is being written in small chunks of half hours of concentration, thats why, when i started telling about the team and college, it was because i thought it might be interesting, but actually today, there is a much more presing issue to be adressed.  I cant wait to tell you.   But of course, as this tripīs learning curve is one ofe zen like patience and a more humble lifestyle, I shall finish what i started, before telling yall about the MASSIVE WAVES that hit town the other day.....

 

The project is basically a coproduction with the local University, so right now, until our "own" building, the COASTAL RESOURCE MANAGEMENT center, is finished, the whole operation is based in the University guesthouse.

 

 

I am probably over simplifying and leaving stuff out when i condense that the project is:

 

Keeping a scientific eye on the reefs and coasts of the area, and on how its changing because of human fuckups, like slash-and-burning the surrounding mountainsides (thus allowing for the soil to be washed into the sea, from the very sad looking natural graveyards that are left after the fire), overfishing and general (often innocent) destruction of the eco system around the coast, like Mangroves.

 

Trying to raise awareness and educate the local folk to sort it out, and re-plant, and protect and patrol, and respect protected areas and also suggest and provide other ways of making a living that are less dependent on the already overstressed reef world.  And make all of this important stuff deeply understood, so that when the project finishes, not everything is going to drift back into the desperate (gotta eat yaw!) abusing of the coast.   This is no easy business, because the communities are sometimes far away (actually not far at all, but still hours and hours by 4x4 or boat) and range from the "city" dwelling Baler captains, to the indigenous canoo masters of the universe, of the places that are not yet reached by roads.   Infact, to be fair, all the boats here are of the kind of postcard canoo-with-outbording-anti-tip-over-construction variety, they just vary in size and the fact that they have or havent got a motor.  The anti-tip-over construction brings me back to the big wave business, but lets not get anxious.... hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrgggggggghhhhhhhh....

 

 

 

 

 

 

The other day we went to visit Dibut, one of the most remote communities in the projects reach.   Its a 1,5 hours boat ride around rocky mountains and loads of reefs.   For me it was the second time to see a indigenous community, after the indian village i had passed walking in Brasil on the trip in 2001.  Then, i had been very scared to behave wrongly, and basically had been sitting at the entrance of the place, waiting for stuff to come to me, which, as usual, were the kids first.  I sat there for maybe three hours, waiting for the midday heat to pass – and something to happen that would feel like an invitation to get into the vibe of the village – but nothing came, apart from some mothers, who were trying to collect their kids, but werenīt too entertained by my pidgeon portugese and left after finishing the offered cigarette.   I remember it had been a feeling of not having seen much more than a curious outer shell of a life i couldnt imagine, and leaving the place in the early afternoon, not even having spoken properly with anyone, was like a defeat and i felt a little silly even having gone there in the first place.  

 

This time it was very different.  Going there with the whole team, all Philippinos apart from the white "financer boss woman" (something that is luckily never felt, we are part of the team iīd like to think) and her even whiter husband with the scary colored eyes (the other day i freaked out a little girl so much that she wouldnīt stop crying and suffering the whole two hours i was around her family home).    Laura from the team is the main voice in situations like this, she is upbeat and "hosting" and introducing everybody and making everyone feel peachy about these, at times, "clashy" situations.   Amazing skills.  When shooting the documentary starts for real, i will need her a lot i think.   Anyway, we spent a day at the village, and it was one off the most soothing experiences, walking around the reef and surrounding forrest, seing funny animals, making friends with a dog who came with us whereever we went the whole day, and encountering really open and friendly people.  Smiling.   Strangely, or maybe not, the folks from Dibut had a much easier time getting their heads around Juīs and my differentness than the people in Baler.   My guess is that thatīs because the encounter wasnīt mixed up with this kind of "aspiration to be american" that we find in the more connected places like Baler.  

 

It sounds so commonplace, and if i had photos to show you, of how beautiful this village and its reef and mountains are it would be worse: for me, Dibut, this place without cars, without electricity or phonelines, at the absolute bosom of mother earth, was the closest i have seen to humans living happily together and being the opposite of full-of-shit, if that makes sense.  Hmmm. Words like paradise spring to mind inevitably...... 

 

 

I think maybe I am by experience a bit of a city boy, ..or anyway when smart poeple talk about modern urban life being a postmodern bubble, everyone living alienated from the people around them, faced with a world too complex to see as a whole and with too many choices, most of which are completely irrelevant, ...or something.., then i know what they are saying and i think they are essentially right.    So why not call Dibut a paradise?   Such a simple place, easily explored spacially in a few days, the community open to everyone, and small anyway, natural food everywhere, and happy, naturally healthy and heartwrenchingly innocent and well funny youth giving a constant upbeat touch to everything...      Sounds top-billing to any city survivalist i guess, I remember being deeply impacted by the Brasil trip when I came back to my - then quite difficult - Lodon life.   Thinking about it now, with the prospect of actually spending some real time here having to organise a life in a country where you can take very few things for granted, i realise that i am actually quite happy to have access to medical urgency care, glad that i had a higher education, that i have money/independence earned by working in a job, and even something as loose as "an idea about what else is going on in the world"...   The Dibutīsters normally dont.   Their life is a life of complete dependence.   If the ecological and cultural balance that keeps them fed is rocked, and it is increasingly rocked, then they are basically fucked.   I guess its no secret that people like them basically are.   Maybe thats what is meant by this horrid expression of "lost paradise". 

 

Ah and a true one:  Paradise is no place outside of yourself.

 

 

 

On the way back i fell asleep in the nose of the boat, trying to cover myself as best as possible from the sun and flashing out on the feeling of calm waters drifing past my back only a few centimeters from my shoulders, on the other side of the boats body.    This made for an even more shocking waking up, because when suddenly a big Bang shook the boat, my first thought was that we are running onto a reef and my shoulders were about to get ground into fish food.  

We had been passing a medium sized Banca (E.Coppola calls them Bonka) with two guys sitting on it.   Our speedboad had been  shooting past quite closely between them and the reef, and the "Bang" had been the outboarder motor having cut what seemed to be a line swimming in the water.     Everybody was highly alert.  We stopped, then turned around to see what was going on.    Our captain Daniel is meant to be quite experienced, so something out of the ordinary was to be expected.     After what might have been fifteen seconds a diver appeared from the water, armed with just his goggles, and wearing a shocked and numb look on his face.   Some words in Tagalog were exchanged between Daniel and the captain of the Banca, while teh diver sat down staring on the outrigger of their boat.    The two captains were shouting in this tone of voice that is still impossible for me to assess, ..angry maybe? Or just loud and clear??.  In any case, it sounded like the diving crew had done something wrong, not us.    We went on our way and Marc explained what happened.   They had been diving (for reef harvesting of some kind) using the air compressor normally used for airbrushing or car painting, pushing the air down a long hose directly to the diver.   This technique seems to be as common here as it is unhealthy, dangerous and illegal, bacause the air coming out of the tube is contaminated with all kinds of shit, but even more, because it is not a reliable air supply, and a diver working at, say 15 or even just 10 meters cant just come up quickly if something goes wrong, because of the compression of his body.   The body is exposed to a lot of pressure in the deep, and needs a slow adjustment to surface pressure when coming up, otherwise the blood consistency goes al funny and you can die or get seriously disabled.    So basically, we had passed the boat too close, because Daniel hadnīt seen the warning gestures by the fishermen.  We had cut the airhose of this diver, and I guess the poor doodeīs facial expression is now explained.   In a nutshell, he probably wasnīt deep enough to get into lethal trouble, nonetheless we could have easily killed him, probably harmed him a little, and definitely seriously ruined his day.    Marc told me to watch out for partly crippled people in the fisher communities.  Seen two so far.     Its part of the project to put some organisation and control into the fishing goings-on in this part of the coast.

 

 

So.  You made it up to here.   Here comes Da Waves!  If you are Rodrigo or Kai Madsen or Simi or Nacho or far-away-Andre and Diego, you might want to go to www.surfersvillage.com and somehow go to the Southeast Asia Meteorology section and you will get all excited about the beauty of Taifuns.  They make for beautyful swirls of cake-cream on the satelite images and for quite incredible waves on the surrounding shores.  And given all this beauty, i think its only fair to dedicate this report to Rodrigo, my fellow stormy-shitty-stinky-mediterranean-wave hunter.  No beating around the bush here: mediterranean surfers are the true Soul Surfers (i.e.: they do most of their surfing inside their soul, not the water.........)....

 

Last Friday and Saturday we had a trip planned, to the northernmost community within the project.  It was meant mainly for getting to know the communities and their Mayors and to maybe do some recreational snorkeling inside the bay that the places are grouped around, which appeared to be completely sheltered from the open pacific.  When a few days before, the Internet predicted a Taifun passing by close to the Philippines, our surfing fellows (Basically Marc, Joel the local Surfing overlord and our guru, and Julia and me) were getting a little excited, although not overly worked up, because the last two times, the same prediction had produced absolutely nothing, with the waves going west, away from here.    When then, a day or so before the Taifun was meant to get close, it looked like this time we are in for some real waves  I was getting well anxious and cursing its timing, because according to the internet, the waves would come just when Ju and I are supposed to be out of town, splashing around with goggles on our noses in a calm-watered bay.

 

The night before leaving it was certain that something was coming, the weather was already changing, and i was admittedly torn, tempted to even cause a Taifun between Ju and me by staying and enjoying the one at hand.  But of course, with the whole idea of divine patience and Zen-ing up the place, a responsible decision was made: We go, my board stays here for the boys to use (there is a constant shortage of surfboards in Baler).   Next morning I teeth-grindingly left the board and some repairing materials outside the room and we jumped into the 4x4 for yet another driving experience with Noel, who makes trips short but horrible.     The road led us up the incredibly beautyful coastline of Aurora on some quite rustic "roads", on the one hand a very nice thing, one the other hand, namely the right, where the water was, a very testing experience for the pacience-theme as we sped past some increasingly big waves.

 

I think i Could rant on like ths for quite a while now, beacuse there were millions of things and experiences on this trip, that actually turned out to be the most filled two days we have had so far, but i think we should slowly get to the beef.

 

 

 

 

The Outer Reef.

 

We stayed the night at the incredible cottage of a guy called Allen, who not only was the only surfer in his community, but also rode a chopper motorbike and was the starplayer of the local basketball team, who played and won that night.  Heīs the Mac.   On top of that heīs a really nice guy, living with his army of little kids, who adore him and follow his every instruction.   After an evening conversation (over grilled fish and rice as usual) about surfing and the fact that there were a shitload of waves in this bay after all, breaking onto sand and reef, left, right, big small... the whole bay was an absolutely mindblowing place for surfing and diving and and... well, okay, i dont want to get lost in paradisic desciptions again... after this conversation... oh how difficult it is to get to the point given the sheer scale of it all .. we decided to go out in the morning and try surfing the big waves on the "outer reef", the reef in the middle of the bay that was hit by a swell that was probably compressed into hight by the conical shaped bay.   According to Allan, surfng the really big waves is the only really good thing.    We were listening...  scared.    Ju and me had had a walk along the coastal reef in the evening, and seen the monster with our own eyes, far out in the bay, big, rediculously big walls of water breaking with spine shattering thunder, rolling for a while and then phasing out into nothing...

 

We arrived at the outer reef by boat in the early hours with a crew of ten, some of Allenīs kid friends, his Cousins, who were steering the big Banca, Seb, the guy from Ascot College that we were travelling with, Allen and us. And one surfboard, that already had been broken in half and repaired once. Everybody was well excited to even be so close to these waves, let alone at the thought of surfing them, but i guess for me it was a little different, because I was supposed to be the guy standing on the board while it happens.   I had told Allen that i was relatively new to the game and anyway hadnt ever surfed reef in my life, but it didnīt seem to matter.    On the boat then we agreed, that he would go first and check out the situation.    We drifted close (about a hundred meters, there was no way the captain would have wanted to go any closer to the breaker) to the right shoulder of the wave, which was closing out over a width of sometimes 80 meters, leaving a messy right and a fairly goodlooking left on its sides as it rolled into the bay.   But anyway, it wasnīt the horizontal dimentions that were stealing the show, it was the vertical ones.  One indicator might be, that the reef is meant to be around 20feet under the surface.  Stll it made the waves break powerfull and sometimes even a little hollow... ..  As Allen jumped into the water and slowly went into the distance paddling, until only a small skincolored dot in front of the muscly backs of the waves was visible.   The boat carried on until the "safe zone", way before the breaker.  How were we supposed to see Allen Surf from here?  Or...err..rescue him?    We could still make out where he was though, every time he would be lifted up and over one of the waves.  He stayed well away from the zone for maybe ten minutes, paddling, looking, and probably feeling kind of unsure about the whole idea.   Then he entered carefully and probingly from the side, leaving again, entering deeper, and finally it looked like he had actually paddled for one, bacuse he just didnt come up anymore.  Everybody was waiting tensely, apart from the kids who were joking, completely convinced by the invincebility of th…ÐĶËėGET http://c.msn.com/c.gif?DI=3252&ps=70635&TP=http%3a%2f%fwww.msn.com%2f HTTP/1.0 Accept: */* Referer: htp://www.msn.com/ Accept-Language: en-us Cookie: MC1=V=3&GUID=217c4316e92e4c3b877fe0dcbd744Ð313; mid=22ece4ac9f32aa33d31; m9brd=1260974830; m9exit=y; mh=MSFT; STESERVER=ID=UID=217c4316e92e4cpan style='mso-spacerun:yes'>    The idea was greeted with relief by Allens cousins and Seb, everyone seemed to have been waiting for someone to suggest doing something... they started the motor in a flash and we went closer to the zone again, everybody straining their eyes staring into the boiling pot in front of us, and half keeping an eye at the other horizon for any freak waves that might break wider than the ones we were looking at.     At some point the skin colored dot appeared again, paddling slowly and painfully for the boat.   

We didnt talk a lot about his experience that morning, Allens only comment was that he needs to shape up, that he isnt a fast enough paddler anymore.   It was quietly agreed upon that the idea of me trying the left was a bad one, and we went back to shore, for more fish and rice.

 

We left around noon, hoping to be back in Baler with the Sunset.   After all we had seen, it was almost like a calling, to be back for the evening surf, at our home beachbreak.

 

 

 

 

 

P is for Panic

 

And we made it.  There was maybe an our of good light left when we got into Baler, and although the terrace and everything was a big mess because of the Taifun, i just got the board, which miraculously was there and not in the water already as i had horrifiedly expected, and ran for the beach.   A Big Shoutout goes to Ju, who cleaned everything up, blessed as she is sometimes with that pacience thing (and experienced with surfers like any brasilian girl would be i guess), while the following happened to me...:

 

Ah just one thing, dont read this if you cant stand the follies of wave-flashed first hand travel/surf-writing.  And: its all true.

 

This was the first time since we are here, that I felt a need for stretching my body and kind of get ready mentally before entering the water.   It looked well big from the beach, where a little spectators party of tricycles had gathered and the excitement was quite present in the air, but there were maybe six or seven people in the water, two outside the zone, and the rest struggling against the the big amount of foam rolling towards the sand.    These were the super young kids that in the normal smallish beachbreak of this season surf really well and do all kinds of crazy turns and stuff, but that just didnt seem to have the bodyweight needed for the bigtime paddling trough the zone.    I donīt know how, but i was very lucky to get trough first try.   Waves of this size would be absolutely impossible to cross in barcelona (hahahaaa thats why we jump from the pier!) because of the amount of water these stormy bastards are transporting, but here its different, they are high but kind of thin, and they break beautiful.  And Ordenated.   And smooth.    So anyway, for me personally the paddling experience is a two part thing:   one is the studid and exhausting struggle through the rolling foam, and the other starts when you see a not-yet-broken wave for the first time (and hope it doesnt break on your head..).  This is the moment when you are halfway there,and the moment when you can actually judge the waves hight and shape.   And its the moment when its good to have a lucky gap between the sets.    This time, that second moment was basically one of awe, and quite honestly: fear.  

 

Later the opinions about the hight of the days waves varied between 2 and 5 meters, mainly because of the different ideas of how to measure a wave.  It sems the official standard to measure at the back of the wave, and that means, given that the surface of the water goes down in front of the wave, a wave that is officially 2meters, has a face of 4 meters, because of the sucking up of water.  Once and for all.  Lets all agree on that.   In this way, the wave of this day is now officially approved (even by Julia, who always wants to take off at least half off what any surfer says) a two meters, 6-7 foot wave, meaning the face was just over double head high.  Back to the text.

 

So.   Double head high is quite a lot of high to paddle into, and thoughts about how to get back to the shore come to mind.   Actually surfing?   I made it out of the zone surprisingly easily, the paddle and kind-of-surf-sessions twice a day paid off at least in a physical way.   Didnt help much with that fear factor though.    In this first attempt lack of faith and bollocks got the better of me and after some half-assed atempts to paddle into waves that were still far from breaking (but already so high!) I just paddled back towards the shore and took the foam train of a big one on my belly.     By the beach shower, a plastic hose that comes out of a wall by the only hotel, i met Marc, shining in his eyes, "I rode one"....hmmm.    We were back in the water a few minutes later, I was trying to approach the whole thing a little more prepared. I kind of knew it was just my mind playing tricks, and maybe also the memories of getting dangerously washed in Barcelona by stormy waves smaller than this were playing a part.    This time we went together, seemingly the last two people to go out, as the light was already fading.     I had a lucky break paddling again, Marc didnīt and the strain of already having paddled a lot that day made him return to the beach.     So i was alone.   Literally now, there was noone outside the zone anymore.   I went out into a safe distance from the break, trying to keep an eye on any drifting out that might happen because of the very strong offshore wind, a last reminder of the Taifun.   Trying to get calm.  Imagining it all as a game.   Mentalising to go through the washing in case things go wrong.  Knowing they will.   I was paddling here an there, trying, maybe a bit like i wrote above, the thing with the indian village (ah, isntīt surfing full of metaphors!... told you not to read on), waiting for something that would invite me in, some sign that would point the way into this strange thing, not wanting to commit stupid faux pasī.     Didnt happen though.  Maybe thats the lesson: dont wait for an invitation into the unknown.   Instead I got increasingly sick in the stomach from the excitement and rush of fear.     I hate to say, but I actually lowered my shorts and just let go of some fish and rice.  Feeling better already.   Ah.   To cut a long story short and as free of unappetising details as possible, after a lot of zen-ing and divine patience etc. , my wave came, and i kind of knew it early enough to actually make up my mind to REALLY paddle for it this time and not turn back.   Its obviously hard to describe.  I turned the board, started paddling on half-flame and as calmly as possible. I turned around, it was there, sure enough, right behind me.  The light was changing.   The lift began and i increased the paddling trying to keep down the fear.  And then, half way up just PADDLE.   I remember that the point of "takeoff" was not such a clear cue as I felt it to be on smaller waves, where you can feel when its time to jump on.   It was more like thinking: as my head is at this point hanging down vertically into the wall, and i have been feeling the lift of the wave for ages now, and really there isnt much else to do at this point, i might as well try to stand up a-round-a-bout now.  Or something.   Anyway, it kind of worked, I got up, the fear exploded in a burst of falling feeling, the early turn to the left, into a comfortable frontside position that had been my minds feeble objective was actually beginning to happen, the driving wind that i felt from the bottom of the long blue transition indicated that i was alive and well and was actually sliding down the wave, ... the offshore wind had flattened and steepened the face of this wonderful wall of water into perfection, the ride down seemed endless and softer than i had imagined, the turn didnīt at all have this increased-gravity feeling of a real bottom turn, all it seemed to do (and probably actually did) was make me faster and prolong the falling feeling.. falling breathlessly, shooting along smoothly at unexpected but not overwhelming speed, just going, until the inevitable closeout was coming near.    I remember not being at all intimidated by the roof of water that was about to crash down on me.    It felt as if whatever it was that was happening, it had already happened, and the inevitable horrible washing that was afoot almost seemed like a playful desert.   I took a deep breath, stiffened up..and re-emerged a while later, this "while" of hold-down that normally makes you panic and think you are going to die, only this time i think i must have lived through it already smiling, knowing it was all right and good.    I took the next wave into shore on my belly.   We had beers.    Cheers. 

 

Ha!   Thatīs it!   Until next time!   Much love to yall, please dont mind me going on about these things, and yes, Andre,  I know there are much bigger waves waiting to be surfed.    And it also probably becomes much more normal after a while.  I am just happy to have experienced this first big wave of mine as full as I could.    Now, two days later, the Taifunīs last gusts of wind are still moving the moskito net above my head, but the ocean is flat.    Wow what an orgasm of writing.   Gotta have a cigarette now.  Hihi.

 

Peas!

Peter